50 Facts About Me

So...I know I have done a blog post similar to this a while ago which was named '100 Facts About Me' (while I failed at). As this blog post was published a while ago, I feel I may have got some new viewers who may have not seen that previous blog post, they may not know as much about me as my earlier viewers do. So, I have decided to do a 50 Facts About Me video so you can all get to know me know closely. Note: Some of the facts may be new or have changed compared to my last 'Facts About Me' post so most of you will probably not no at least 5 of these probably (maybe more).

1) My full name is Emily Mae Holland.

2) My birthday is on May 20th 1999.

3) My favorite TV shows are Pretty Little Liars, Supernatural, Coronation Street and The Only Way Is Essex (TOWIE).

4) I honestly cannot go anywhere without my iPhone.

5) I cry very easily, meaning I cry at TV shows, movies, books, even seeing someone else crying makes me cry but for some reason I am unable to force myself to cry.

6) When I was 7 years old my house got struck by lightning and I appeared on the news and the radio etc.

7) I honestly adore the Irish accent, I think it's so sexy, haha. Sometimes I even wish I was Irish.

8) Even though I am only 16 I have a list of my favorite girls and boys names for when I have a child or children in the future.

9) Following on from the previous fact, my favorite boys names are Noah, Ezra and Caleb and my favorite girls names are Aria, Lydia Liesl, Madeleine, Madison and Talia.

10) I absolutely adore musicals, my favorites include The Sound Of Music, Les Miserables, Wicked, Chitty Chitty Bang Bang and more.

11) If I could have one superpower it would be to be able to read peoples minds.

12) I have many, many fears/phobias but my main ones are spiders, small/enclosed spaces / being locked or trapped in a room, dolls, death, lifts/elevators and thunder and lightning (linked to fact 7).

13)  I have never been to a funeral.

14) When I was younger I had to go to a speech doctor as I could not pronounce words with a C or K in it, I used to pronounce these words with a T, for example, my brother is called Luke and I used to call him Lute.

15) Tango Ice Blasts are the best things about going to the cinema.

16) I suffer from anxiety, in school this make me very vulnerable and makes people think they can say whatever they want to me, as I don't talk much because I am shy, even around my friends. Honestly, I hate it and I wish I don't have to live this way but when people think they can say whatever they want to me because they know I won't fight back, I just bottle up my anger and it makes my anxiety worse.

17) You can often find me reading a book of some sort.

18) I pretty live in comfy PJ bottoms or jogger bottoms. If I don't need to be anywhere I don't see why I have to get dressed.

19) Afterlife and death terrify me.

20) I have no allergies.

21) My favorite school subjects are English and Art.

22) I would much rather be too cold than too hot.

23) Whenever it's Friday the 13th I am always superstitious and paranoid that something bad will happen.

24) I am incredibly indecisive.

25) I absolutely despise mushrooms.

26) My favorite sports are Boxing, Swimming and Badminton.

27) I suffer from exzema, if you didn't know it's when you skin is really dry, red, patchy and sometimes itchy. I'm lucky that I only have it on my hands but recently a little on my face too.

28) My favorite color is Teal.

29) I play no instruments, but I would absolutely love to learn to play piano. It would be a dream to play River Flows In You on piano. 

30) I did karate for a year and a half.

31) I hate tea and coffee.

32) I have a very wide music taste. Meaning I like a lot of different genres, such as Pop, Rock, Rap, Country, Classical, Opera and I love musicals but I guess that's not really a genre.  

33) My favorite time of year is Christmas. I just really get into it, the music, decorations, family time, just everything.

34) I was born in Portsmouth.

35) I love making lists, which means I always have a notebook on me.

36) I am always singing, even though I am not the best singer.

37) Whenever I am really nervous, my hands shake, or I tap, I talk a lot and really fast.

38) I am terrified of public speaking, even just talking to like 5 people I will go bright red and it's horrible.

39) I only really drink water, I usually drink about 3 liters a day.

40) My favorite breakfast is always Greek yogurt and fruit (usually with strawberries and raspberries.

41) I love the feeling of being scared when watching horror films.

42) But during horror films I always predict what going to happen (as most horror films are very predictable, which is annoying).

43) I always listen to music when reading a book and a lot of people find that weird.

44) I love Photography and I really wish I took it as a GCSE.

45) I have always grown up with cats but when I'm older I really want a pug.

46) I hate to say it but I am more of a morning person than a night owl.

47) I have been wearing contact lenses since I was 11 years old.

48) When I'm home I always have to be wearing a pair of fluffy socks as my feet are always cold.

49) I have a massive girl crushes on Ruby Rose, Shay Mitchell, Janel Parrish and Ashley Benson

50) I love baking but I honestly cannot cook at all.

There we go, I actually completed the 50 Facts About Me. I hope this allowed you to get to know me a lot better. I would love to get to know my viewers more so, feel free to leave facts about you in the comments.

Hope you enjoyed it.

Emily xx

Hello May

Well...I failed my last blog challenge I set myself. I now know not to promise anything on my blog as I probably will not stick to it...sorry.

Anyway, today is May 1st. This year is going so fast already I can't keep up. Right now, as I am writing this it is dark, miserable and wet outside, I thought May was for warmth and pretty flowers, it supposed to be Spring but obviously it isn't. May is going to be scary. I have a few big things going on. The main one on May 12th I start my exams...yes the exams that pretty much determine how your whole life is going to turn out and yes I am terrified. Technically, my exams have already started because on Monday and Tuesday I had a 10 hour art exam. But that was done in the classroom so, May 12 is when my proper exams that take place in the hall start. This is the reason I have been behind on my blog, basically revising and working on my art book the whole time ( art in school takes up a lot of your time if you didn't know). Once all these exams are over I have an 11 week Summer and a 2 week family holiday to Florida to look forward to. Anyway, this year May is also the month I turn 16, yes 16, when I am finally legal and finally becoming an adult. I'm not too sure if I'm doing anything for my birthday on the 20th but I will have to see.

This whole year is a big one for me. Turning 16, stress, revising, exams, holiday and at the of it all...college. I am truly terrified. What if I get lost? What if I get on the wrong bus? What if I hate my teachers, classes? All these questions flooding my mine. Everyone keeps saying to me you'll be fine, but I won't. They're just trying to make me feel better, the first day of college is always daunting for everyone, you cannot lie, I know it is, you cannot tell me it isn't. 

What is your May looking like?

Got anything scary happening in your life?

Let me know in the comments.

Emily xx

Things That Annoy Me

Okay...it's safe to stay that I haven't done a blog post in quite a while. I apologize for that. But now I'm back, lets get straight back into the swing of things. Since I have been gone for quite a while I am going to attempt to write a post every week day for only this week. I know I do these sort of 'getting to know me' posts quite a lot. But I feel that some of the things I write about can help out a lot of people, for example my anxiety and bullying blog posts a while ago.

Now, get ready for this week because some of them may be quite deep...

Anyway, lets start of easy, something you can relate to, something we have at least one of...

Little specific things that annoy me...

1) People who boast. Boast meaning when someone talk excessively about their achievements, possessions or abilities. Rubbing it in someones face that your better than them making them feel down about themselves. Just no need for it.

2) When someone interrupts me or ignores me when I'm talking. If I'm talking it's because I have something to tell, I want people to listen. I just feel interrupting someone is just plain rude. This happens to me a lot of the time as I am very shy, when I'm talking other people don't hear me, ignore me or interrupt me because I'm not loud enough.

3) People chewing with their mouth open. I know that this is something a lot of people hate. When your eating you don't want to see the food that the other person just consumed being chewed up in their mouth, also that horrible chamming noise that comes with this. Just rude and disgusting honestly.

4) Attention seekers. I'm at school still so I see a lot of this. Girls that play dumb just to get boys attention, wearing crop tops, short tight shorts that basically expose their arse cheek, people who pretend to be funny or pretend to be someone else just so people like them, making out that they are amazing, have a massive house, loads of money, spoilt rotten to get people to think they are perfect. I experience others doing this daily at school.

5) Racists, homophobes and just ignorant people should not exist. Just horrible, cannot stand these sorts of people.

6) When you have an itch that you can't reach 

7) When people tell me what to do/boss me around like I'm some 5 year old kid

8) The sun, heat, sweat, can't cool down, feeling stick because of sweat, being burnt. Hate it. Summer is probably my worst season (sorry to Summer lovers out there but it's just not for me)

9) People leaving my door open 

10) When people talk about me behind my back and I know but they can't admit it if I confront them about it

11) When someone stares, whether it's someone staring at me, leading to awkward eye contact and you don't know where to look or whether I'm with someone and they star are someone or something else

12) Just generally I annoy myself. My shyness especially. This causes me to feel socially awkward when I'm with a group or friends, I don't want to say the wrong thing, I don't want them to laugh at or judge me. It makes me feel invisible. My anxiety I hate, also makes this situation much worse, anxiety can spring on at any time.

Okay, 12 things that annoy me. Leave in the comments the top 3 things that annoy you. Do you agree with any of mine? 

Leave it in the comments

Emily xx

2014 Flashback

Today, marks the last day of 2014!

Wow, 2014 what a year!

It's only when you sit down and truly think whether the past year was the best or worst year of your life. For me, it's both. It may be hard to think how a year can be the best and worst year of your life, but it truly was. 2014 defiantly had it's ups and downs, but I won't bore you with going through my year month by month. I have chosen to just pick out my highlights.

Firstly, lets start off with Alton Towers. At the beginning of April my family and I chose to go on a family day out at Alton Towers. I feel this was such an enjoyable day filled with laughs and lots of roller coasters. It may not sound like that much to you but it was probably the best family day out that I have had in a long time and I'm glad that I can now say that I have been on The Smiler. 

And you can find out more about that day here

By far, the biggest highlight of 2014 was my cousin Michelle's wedding. This happened on the 4th of May and the wedding took place at the Marwell Hotel. I had the amazing honour of being one of her bridesmaids  The day was filled with giggles, glam, champagne, tears and smiles but the night on the other hand was a completely different story. It was filled with loud music, dancing, food, vodka, more champagne and more laughs. It was truly a night to remember. My biggest highlight of the night was seeing my 17 year old drunk brother on the dance floor, dancing all over the place and coming out with hilarious one-liners. I think the wedding was truly a highlight of 2014 for everyone in my family

And you can see pictures of this highlight here

Those were probably my two main highlights of the year, I know not much. But now as you know not every year is perfect. I did have some tough spots within the year...

Firstly, my anxiety. As you know from a few blog posts I suffer from anxiety and yes, this year was very tough. I struggled massively from anxiety and panic attacks this year from exams, to speaking in front of the class, to feeling anxious just sat on my bed or walking to school. I had panic attacks from a lot of different things. I have realized that it is getting worse.  But this year I opened up a bit about it. Firstly, my friend Hannah, she told me that she had her first panic attack this year and that's when I chose to open up too and now whenever she feels anxious or has had a panic attack recently she talks to me in science class. Since then, I have opened up to a few of my other friends too but I don't know if they understand it as well as Hannah does. However, I still haven't told my mum but honestly I will soon.

Now that my anxiety ramble is out the way. A few weeks a go a had a bit of bad news. My cat, Tommy is 12, and my family and I noticed that on the side on his neck he seemed to have a visible bump from the outside. We gave it a few days but it only got bigger. So, my mum booked an appointment to the vets and took him. On that Friday after school my mum sat me and my brother down and told us that Tommy has cancer, he has a tumor in his mouth and doesn't have that long left to live. We have to make a decision as a family when to put him down. Today it is December 31st and we haven't put him down yet, he doesn't seem to be showing any pain so we haven't done it yet. Recently, that has made me extremely upset. Not many people know how close a pet can be to you.

Anyway, 2014 has had it's ups and downs. But 2015 is just round the corner and I have a bigger year ahead of me so, I am determined to make it the best yet.

How has 2014 been for you?

Happy New Years!

Emily xx 

A Few Of My Favourite Things TAG

As I haven't posted for a while, I thought I need to get back on track and start back with a tag that YouTuber Emma Frow (Inthefrow on YouTube) came up with.

The idea being that you talk about a few of your favourite things in different categories, a few meaning 3 (as it's generally known. So you have to answer 3 of your favourite things in each category 

So, lets begin...

Products: 

My iPhone 

My green apple scented DKNY perfume

Batiste dry shampoo

Food:

 Pasta

Pizza

Fish Fingers 

Places:

Brighton

Florida 

Alton Towers

Things you'd miss: 

My Phone

My Mum

My Nan

Things you do when you're bored:

Watch YouTube videos

Draw

Talk to a friend/family member

Things you like to do when it's sunny:

Have a BBQ

Drink something cold

Sit out in my garden 

Films:

Les Miserables

Zombieland

Lion King

Songs: (I'm choosing to say my all time favourite songs)

Man who can't be moved - The Script 

Carry on my Wayward Son - Kansas

Mr Bright-side - The Killers 

Brands:

Apple

MAC.

Estee Lauder

Outdoor things that you like:

The country side

The color of the leaves in Autumn

Going on walks

Events:

Christmas

My birthday

New years

Cartoons:

Finding Nemo

Up

Frozen

Buildings:

My family home

The Mayflower Theater

The Empire State Building

Anything in everyday life:

Family

Shopping

Friends

Traits in a person:

Sense of humor

Loyal

Caring

Influences:

My Mum 

My Nan

Many YouTubers such as Zoella

Drinks:

Water (boring I know)

Hot Chocolate

Lemonade 

Experiences:

All my family holidays

Going to a haunted on Halloween 2014

My first time seeing Wicked live at The Mayflower Theater

Things to watch:

Supernatural

The only way is Essex

I'm a Celebrity Get me Out of Here!

Youtubers:

Zoella

PointlessBlog

ThatcherJoe

OK, that's it. I hope you enjoyed that and helped you learn a little bit more about me. Feel free to do this tag yourself and send me the link in the comments if you do.

Emily xx

Autumn

I do not own these photos by the way!

It is finally October and do you know what that means?...

AUTUMN IS ON IT'S WAY!!

Personally, it's my favorite season

The leaves will soon be making their transition from green to the dazzling yellows, oranges and reds and the chill in the air during some of the most recent mornings makes it clear that autumn is finally on its way.

Here are the things I really love about Autumn that I'm looking forward to:

Cold weather

Cosy socks

Oversized jumpers

Wearing more onesies

Hot chocolates

Getting the fire going

Halloween

Horror movie marathons

The feeling that Christmas is approaching

Listening to Christmas songs the moment it turns November

More baths in the evenings

Autumn leaves

Warm tones (in leaves, in clothes, everywhere)

Candles, candles and more candles!

Scarves, Boots and Coats

 Evenings get darker

Rainy days under the duvet, watching films

Fluffy PJ's

Christmas stuff appearing in the shops

TV programs (American Horror Story-new series, X Factor, I'm a Celebrity Get Me Out of Here!)

Forest walks through the golden leaves

...I think that's about it, haha. 

Let me know your favorite things about Autumn (Fall) in the comments

Emilyxx

Body Confidence

I would like to warn you that this is a very serious and personal topic for a lot of people. I do not want this to turn into some sort of debate or whatever, but I hope that by writing the post, it will help at least one of you.

First, let me start by saying I am 15 years old and I am 5ft2" and I weigh 7st2lbs (If you are unsure of these measurements, feel free to convert them yourself). A healthy weight for a female my age and height is (apparently) 115-125lbs and I am 100lbs...so yes, I am slightly underweight. Everyone will have something about there bodies the they don't like, legs, arms or just your weight in general for example. For me, I don't really like my legs, I think they are a little fat. I am very petite and most of the fat seems to go to my legs it seems.

 Sometimes, one specific friend of mine just says to me "Emily, you are so skinny". Firstly, how on earth am I suppose to respond to that?! Whenever someone says that to me, I never know it is suppose to be a complement or not, they probably think it is but most "skinny" people think of it as rude and inappropriate and offensive. (Most likely) All "skinny" people find "skinny" is a very offensive term! (even typing the word makes me feel horrible) Anyway, when she said that to me, I think I just stood there with my mouth open saying "Umm", just thinking what does she expect me to say to that. All through my childhood (mainly primary school) people used to pick me up and say "Wow, Emily you are SO light!". Back then it didn't really bother me because I was quite young. But now I realize how inappropriate, rude and offensive it may be to a "skinny" person to be called skinny by someone else. (now that I have experienced it). 

However, those people who think they are paying me compliment don't actually get it at all. For "skinny" people  actually being called skinny is mostly seen as an insult.

Honestly, it's just the way you say it "You're so skinny", "You're so thin", "You're so slim" none of these are acceptable to say to a "skinny" person. They are all offensive and seen as an insult to them, even if you don't know it at the time. Instead of saying "You're so skinny" it's better to say "I love your figure" or "I love you small waste" because "love" shows to the person on the other end that it is not an insult or an offensive term, because you saying "I love" they know it's a compliment. But by saying "You're so skinny" they are highly likely to see it as an insult. Please just think about your words.

You always hear about larger people going through a tough time trying to lose weight, slim people can through just as much of a tough time trying to put it on, but nobody ever thinks of that.

"Are you obese?", "You need to lose weight ", "You are a big bag of fat", "You need to get some meat off those bones of yours" , "Are you...okay?"

Would you say these things out loud to a larger person?

No, you just wouldn't, would you? So why is it acceptable to ask a slimmer person questions of the same criteria? 

"Are you anorexic?", "You need to put some weight on", "You are a bag of bones", "Why are you so boney?", "Why are you so skinny?", "Get some meat on your bones", "Are you okay?"

Do you think it doesn't effect the in the same way the same way it would someone who was fat?

I hate the fact that we have a BODY MASS INDEX, that we all must live by? Who decides what BMI we should be anyway? Who cares if I'm "slightly" below average, who cares you're slightly above it? As long as you feel happy in the skin you are in, is that not all that matter? Yes, I may seem a bit smaller and skinnier than the average person, but I'm happy at the moment.

There are still things that I don't like about my body. But I have learnt to accept the way I am. 

It's really not fair. Nobody ever takes into account genes, metabolism, bone structure, medical problems. There are thousands or reasons people are how they are, and why people are the size they are. The above statements may be true in some cases, but for the majority, it's probabaly not.

So, is calling someone skinny really acceptable? Or, do you agree with me that it's just as insensitive as calling someone fat? As as naturally skinny person, I can tell you that it's not very nice being called out for being "too skinny", especially as i tried so hard to put weight on, and wanted so desperately to be "of average size" as I was growing up. It's a bit of a touchy subject but one I wanted to address. I get a weird amount of people asking me my height and weight, and a part of me thinks they are trying to suss out if im underweight in a very sly and kinda creepy way. So now at least i've answered that for you...weirdos. ;)

Moral of the story here though, is that I don't really think it's ever acceptable to comment on anybody's weight, skinny or fat. Why should you ever be allowed an opinion on someone else's body or way of life? You can think it in your head, but the minute you open your mouth it becomes very dangerous, that is of course unless you are opening your mouth to give a compliment, by all means do this. haha. If YOU are happy with the way you look, that's all that matters, and if you aren't, chances are you are doing something about it and working towards something you know you will make you happy.

Everybody is different, and nobody is perfect. It would be a very boring place if this wasn't the case.

Emily xx