New Years Eve

So, it's New Year's eve already. I can't believe that this year has gone so quick, it's amazing haha. This year has had its ups and down for example some of the good things is that I have met a few new friends, I got my first A, I've got a supernatural buddy and I went to my first concert and more. However the downs of the year, I had my first ever panic attack around May time, then another one a couple weeks ago. These were horrible and terrifying, a real downfall in my life and because of these panic attacks it has really reduced my self-confidence and self-esteem, these panic attacks really effected my life because my panic and worry levels are higher than ever. Also, my parents have had 2 massive arguments which were terrifying and both times the fights happened in the evening and I had to cry myself to sleep.

Apart from all that I really hope that 2014 will be a great year, well hopefully much better than this year. I really hope you all have a great new year too and have great accomplishments coming your way. 

What have you got planned for new years eve today, going out and celebrating with friends and family or maybe staying at home having a movie night? Whatever your doing make sure you have a lot of fun!

Tomorrow is new years day and I'm looking forward to telling you my new years resolutions.

Emily xx

Worrying

Worrying is a type of anxiety. Everyone worries, whether its over pretty much everything or if it's worrying about one specific thing. You all worry about something. For me I worry about loads of things, from exams to talking in front of people. But most of the things we worry about never happen. Worrying only brings stress and panic and that is never good because it can cause panic attacks which are extremely horrible, believe me I know, I've had 2 panic attacks so far and they a terrifying and brings a terrible, horrible feeling. I wouldn't wish a panic attack on anyone, not even my worst enemy (I don't have one but I wouldn't wish it on anyone)

The best thing to do is to not let the worry take over, you can control it and make it get locked up but if you let the worry through it will take over and cause lots of horrible feelings and actions which can severely effect your behavior. You could be so worried about everything that you go into shut down mode, you won't want to leave your house, you won't want to talk to anyone, you won't want to go anywhere, you just want to stay at home where it's 'safe'. You may think that nowhere else is 'safe' because you worried that the worse will happen. This won't help anything though, it could cause friends and family to stay well away from you(which won't be nice), your friends may stop inviting you to go anywhere because the thing that is worrying you is keeping you from doing anything. All this could happen if you let the worry and panic through, it won't be nice will it, it will be horrible. Just think of all those horrible things that could happen to if you let that bad feeling through and this will encourage you not to let any of you not to let any of the worry and panic through so you don't have to face any of those events.

Don't let the worry through, don't let it control you and stop you from things you want to do, don't let the worry take over because it can cause you to miss out of many opportunities!
Stand up to the anxiety, bat it away and lock it up so it doesn't cause you any depression or stress.

Emily xx

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

It's the 25th of December and that means one thing... it's Christmas day!!!! Woop Woop, let's party haha!

This post is just really to say Merry Christmas, I really hope everyone got everything they wanted, I also really hope you spent lots of time with your families because some people don't get that opportunity and everyone should be proud and appreciate those amazing people who don't get to spend time at Christmas or barely any time at all with their families/friends but instead they are out there doing us all proud by fighting for our country. Your all amazing!

I can't believe how fast this year has gone!!!! I hope everyone has a good 2014 and a good New Years.

What plans have you all made for the new years?

What Christmas presents did you get?

(Just curious)

Merry Christmas and have a happy New year!

Emily xx

The Truth About December!

It's Christmas Eve!!!!! I literally can't believe Christmas has come round so quick!

Anyway the point of this post. Yesterday I watched danisnotonfire's newest youtube video named 'The Truth About December', I loved it and it inspired me to make a blog post about it. So, here we go.

December is such a stressful month! This is because of the main event near the end of the month. Christmas. In a lot of ways Christmas/December is great, spend time with family, eat lots, presents etc. However, it can be mad dash of panic and stress trying to get everything ready for Christmas.

Some people love everything about Christmas (which is me) and protect its honour like someone's trying to eat their baby. However, some people hate everything about it. If you don't celebrate Christmas you won't relate. But December is literally a ticking time bomb until your complete, mental breakdown. I agree that December is really stressful but all I mainly think about is Christmas, even though I'm 14 I still get way too overly excited for Christmas.

Back to the stressful part of December. If you still go to school you will know that on your last week before you break up for Christmas, all you do is just watch films, play Christmas quizzes and pretty much do nothing, this isn't at all stressful (obviously) but if your in year 11 (which I'm not) I know that, that week all you have is mock exams which are seriously stressful. I'm in year 10 and on the second to last week before we broke up I had a French speaking mock which I was bloody terrified for, I burst out crying and had a panic attack before it which was horrible. I got a grade E for it which isn't so good, so my teacher said to me and a few others that we have to retake it in January, so basically I will have to relive it again :(. Anyway the year 11's had to suffer through like 20 mock exams which isn't the best way to spend your last week of school before Christmas.

Also, all the Christmas shopping. Everyone goes into town determined to do their Christmas shopping and trying to survive the Christmas shopping war zone. Never leave it till the last minute! You may not be able to get the gifts you want and it just brings on more stress. If you buy the presents around 2 weeks before Christmas, you don't need to stress out worrying if you've bought everything, it won't be a big war zone with all the Christmas shoppers etc.

Basically, December is just a big lump of panic, worry, stress and a bit of excitement really.
Once Christmas is over you can just relax.
Have a great Christmas!
Emily xx

Chitchats

So, I guess this post is just a little chit chat, update type of post.

Anyway

It's 3 sleeps till Christmas!!!! Who's excited? I know I definitely am! Woop Woop, can't wait. Well, now I've got my excitement out the way, time for the update part of the post.

Friday, I broke up from school for the Christmas holidays! Every year at school on our last day before we brake up for Christmas, everyone has a tutor party, to be honest my tutor party was more like a 6 year olds birthday party haha. If you don't know what tutors groups are at school basically there are 4 or 5 people from each year which is our tutor group and we have one teacher as our tutor, and we have a specific room where our tutor room is. We go to our tutor rooms for 25 minutes everyday except Friday (we miss out PD on Fridays because we finish earlier) and this is called personal development ( PD for short). So anyway on Friday we went to our tutor rooms for an hour and a half for a tutor party (usually on a normal Friday we finish school at 2:05pm but we finished at 1:00pm for out last day before Christmas) then we went home afterwards also at school we have 6 coloured houses that were all in and 3 houses had a Christmas assembly on Tuesday and the other 3 had theirs on Friday. So that was quite a good day.

However, on a down side. The next day (Saturday) I woke up to the sound of my mum crying her eyes out. Throughout the whole of that Saturday morning my parents were arguing. My dad got dressed and stormed outside in a rage and took the car somewhere (I think he went to his work office) then about an hour and a half later he came back. My mum and dad wouldn't talk to each other. Since my dad came back they didn't talk to each other for about 4 hours then when I had my dinner they started arguing and shouting again so I took my dinner plate and ran upstairs crying. I opened my brother Luke's room and said "I'm not eating down there, their arguing again". I am so lucky to have a brother like Luke because he went downstairs and tried to stop them, this has happened before and then Luke went to the rescue too. Anyway luckily their fine now and not arguing. But honestly it was horrible I hated it. 

Anyway that was a couple 'events' that have happened over this weekend.

I can't wait until Christmas though, as you can tell. Tuesday is Christmas eve and every Christmas eve we have a tradition in the day we go for a long walk through the woods and at the end of the woods is a pub and we always get a drink there. So I'm looking forward to that! 

Do you have any Christmas traditions?

Emily xx

Phobias!

Ok, I'm so sorry I keep changing it but I'm just going to still stick with 4 posts per week but I'm not going to set certain days, or if I'm going talk about a big topic or just like a chatty one. I'm only going to talk about whatever really, that can relate to you.

Today's topic is fears. Everyone has at least one phobia (something their scared of), unless your someone who is completely fearless, it is highly unlikely that someone will have no fear though. Everyone has a fear but it might be that you haven't found it yet. There's nothing wrong with having fears/phobias!.

What made me want to talk about fears and phobias is that the other day in maths my teacher was looking at this thing called The Phobia List. This list is basically all the possible phobias you can have and there names. He was calling some out in class and some of the phobias just sound bizarre. Some of them. You may want to stay away with anyone with this, Ablutophobia, a fear of washing or bathing (ewww), Arachibutyrophobia, this is the fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of your mouth, wow very specific, here's a tip just don't eat peanut butter haha. Barophobia, I have no idea how this is possible but this is a fear of gravity, really wtf haha. See what I mean by some of them are just bizarre and weird.

I have many phobias too. I have stage fright (I hate going on stage), claustrophobia, fear of being enclosed in small spaces, Cleithrophobia or Cleisiophobia is a fear of being locked in an enclosed space, Automatonophobia fear of ventriloquist dummies, manikins, wax statues - anything that falsely represents a sentient being and Arachnophobia (fear of spiders). I have a few more fears/phobias but I decided I'm not going to name them all. I told you these 4 fears/phobias because these are my worst ones. 

Some people have many fears like me but some may have only one or even none. Anyway most people have something their afraid of but we all have to face fears at some point. I probably have faced a few of my fears but it has always ended badly for example my English teacher told me that me and friend had to do a presentation in front of the whole year the day after that day, and when she told us just thinking about it that day I had a massive panic attack, it was one of my worst experiences but luckily I refused and said no to doing it and my teacher was alright with it. Facing your fears can end badly like that time with me or it can help you cure your fear. However, if your to scared to face your fears, you could go and see a therapist about how to cure your fears.

But fears are the down part of human life I guess and your lucky if you don't have any. Leave your fears in the comments!

Emily xx

Expected Life Events

I am so sorry I'm a little behind schedule again so I'm posting the big topic post today instead of last night. Ps. I'm going to miss out Wednesday's now as I keep falling behind schedule and I think I post too many times a week. So from now on there will be no posts on Wednesdays.

Last times big topic was unexpected life events so I thought it would only make sense if I did expected life events today.

Expected life events are much less stressful than unexpected life events because you know it's going to happen and/or wanted to happen, also, the change its usually predictable, so you will most likely prepare yourself and plan for it. For example starting school is an example of an expected life event, because you know you will have to start school at some point and your parents should have told you all about it and reassured you about starting school. Expected life events leave impacts on your life as well as unexpected life events. For example marriage could be an example of an expected life event.
Marriage is a big impact on your life because it brings much bigger responsibilities and more commitment into your life. Usually when your married it is most likely you will have a baby too, having a baby could be an example of both unexpected and expected. But this also brings great responsibilities into your life. You will have less spare time, it's tiring, it's stressful and it can be very annoying. This leaves big impacts on your life because it is most likely permanent and it can effect/test you emotionally, socially, physically and intellectually

That's all I have to say about expected life events. I'm am really sorry that these big topic posts aren't that long. They are supposed to be beneficial and informative but I usually run out of things to say or if I carry on I will probably keep saying something I already said. I will try to make theme longer though.
Emily xx

Christmas Questions #4

I'm sorry I didn't do any Christmas questions on Friday. I ran out of time on Thursday to do my main post so I posted it on Friday. I was a little behind schedule.

Anyway, 9 days till Christmas!!

1) Talk us through your typical Christmas day

Well, me and my brother wake up at about 8:30 and go into my mum and dad's room if they say it's too early we count how many presents we have in our room, we shake them etc. Trying to guess what they are ( May sound a bit weird but oh well). When my mum and dad wake up they come in whoever is opening their presents firsts room. We open them then go down stairs to open the presents under the tree from our Nan and the presents in the stockings. We have breakfast and get dressed then chill out for about 2 hours. We alternate between 3 houses with relatives each Christmas and this year it's our house so we don't really have to go anywhere this year. That's pretty much it.

2) What is your favourite thing about Christmas?

I have a few favourite things I love about Christmas. The laughs with the relatives, the decorations, and obviously the presents.

3) Are you a pro present wrapper or do you fail miserably?

Personally, I think I'm in the middle. I'm not amazing but I'm not completely terrible. But even though I'm not a pro I still go all out with ribbon etc when it comes to wrapping. I really love wrapping.

4) Best present you have ever received at Christmas?

The best present I gave ever received is probably my 36 inch TV, well I think I got it for Christmas

5) Worst present you have ever received?

Well, if you have watched doctor who you will know what this is. A few Christmases ago I received a weeping Angel toy statue thing. I hated weeping angels and my mum and dad got it for me as a joke.

I honestly can't think of any more Christmas questions so I guess this was the last one from this mini series. 

On Wednesday I will come back with something else to talk about. Not sure what it is yet.

Hope you liked this mini series.

Emily xx

Unexpected Life Events

Firstly, I would like to apologise that I didn't publish this blog post last night, I ran out of time.

So, recently I have been learning about unexpected life events in my health and social care lessons at school and it has made me remember how hard it is and what it's like.

Unexpected Life events are always very hard to handle. They are not planned and when they happen it hits you like a ton of bricks. A lot of unexpected life events can be very upsetting and maybe surprising for you. Events like these may be things such as serious illnesses, a death of a loved one and more. These things effect your families and friends massively, it will probably leave a big hole in your heart and you might feel like part of you is missing. It will be very hard to take in but trust me once it sinks in, you will try not to think about it and move on. Moving on from such a serious event that has happened in your life will be very hard for some people. It may take a long time for you to move on, depending on what the event is and if it on involves someone else, your relationship with them.

Everyone has been through an unexpected life event that has effected them at least once in their life ( I know I have) so everyone will know what it's like and how you feel. Remember, if these types of events cause you to be depressed and upset, remember you are not alone!! Lots of people have been through this. Please, if you are finding it incredibly hard to cope with talk to a close family member or friend and keep you mind off of it. If you sit at home crying and being deppressed etc. It won't do you any good. When you talk to someone who is close to you about it you will feel much better that you have got your feelings out. However, some people may not want to talk about it, that's fine, I was like that when a close family friend of ours died last month. But once I talked to my friends about why I was upset at school and once I had done that I forgot about it as they cheered me up. I'm not trying to push you to talk about it if your not ready to yet, I am just suggesting it as it is a good idea but it might only work for some people.

Your not alone. Talk to someone if your ready to. Everyone goes through it at some point in their life.

Emily xx

Christmas Questions #3

1)  What pieces of clothing do you usually where at this time of year?

It's Winter, so obviously I will go for pieces of clothing that keep me warm. I love Parker coats, Parker coats mainly come in dark green but I think they come in other colour such as black and navy blue. Parker coats are known for there fluffy hoods and sometimes if you find one with a fluffy inside lining, that's a bonus! I also love tartan scarfs, especially red ones. They go with pretty much everything and I just love them.

2) Which hot drink do you usually go for in Winter?

Definitely a yummy, delicious hot chocolate.

3) Where do you usually go for Christmas?

Well, on Christmas day we alternate every year between our house, and and 2 other aunties/uncles houses. Sometimes if we have the relatives round on Christmas day, one other auntie and uncle have us and the relatives round on boxing day then the auntie and uncle left will have us and the relatives on new years. I think is our turn for Christmas day this year.

4) Real or fake Christmas tree?

As much as I want a real Christmas tree, we always have a fake one. I think it may be because if we get a real one my family won't want to get a new Christmas tree each year.

5) Do prefer giving or receiving presents?

At the moment, I know it may sound mean but I prefer receiving presents. However, I definitely think as I get older I will prefer giving presents.

There was the next questions, I think I am starting to run out of questions so I will keep going until I completely run out of Q&A's.

Emily xx

Christmas Questions #2

Time to answer the next 5 questions in my Christmas Questions series!

1) What is your favourite Christmas song?

Well, I have many favourite Christmas songs but probably my top 3 would be The Pogues feat Kirsty MaColl - Fairy tale of New York, Mariah Carey - All I want for Christmas is you, and Shakin' Stevens - Merry Christmas Everyone. I recommend giving these songs a listen too!

2) How much are excited for Christmas?
I seriously cannot wait for Christmas!!!! It is by far my favourite time of year and I am massively excited for it.

3) Do you have any funny Christmas memories?
I found this quite funny! Last year, on Christmas eve at about 11:30 - 12:00pm, when me and my family were going to bed, my dad played a funny Christmas song called Dominic The Donkey full volume on his dock station and I kept singing and jumping around to the song which I found really funny. I don't really have any other memories.

4) Do you like decorating your bedroom for Christmas?
This year has been the only year that I've decorated my bedroom with Christmas decorations. I think it's because a few months ago I redecorated my bedroom so it's a bit more grown up for me. So, this December I decided to decorate my bedroom all festive and Christmassy. I really like it though, so I will probably decorate my room every year now.

5) Do you send Christmas cards?
I usually give Christmas cards to all my friends at school but my mum usually gives the other Christmas cards to relatives, family friends etc.

Ok, so that was my next 5 questions. Hope your liking the Christmas Q&A's so far. I will be back with more of these on Wednesday.
Emily xx

Christmas Questions #1

It is now 19 days till Christmas. I have decided to answer some Christmassy questions for you. Everyday I do the smaller posts, so Monday, Wednesday and Fridays, I will answer 5 Christmas related questions for the build up to Christmas, or until I run out of questions. Let's get started!

1) What is your favourite Christmas film?

Well, I'm torn between two, Home Alone and Elf, there both amazingly funny films and I can't decide between the two so there both my favourite Christmas films. I highly recommend you watch them both.

2) When do you start getting excited for Christmas?

I usually start getting excited for Christmas around mid September ( fairly early I know) Basically, when it gets colder outside and when it starts to get darker earlier. I get massively excited for Christmas though.

3) Do you have any Christmas traditions?

We had more Christmas traditions when me and my brother were younger, for example putting a carrot and a glass milk for Santa and his reindeer. On Christmas eve me and my brother decided who's bedroom were going in first to watch open their presents on Christmas day and that's pretty much it I think. Other than having a roast dinner on Christmas day like everyone else does.

4) Do you like Christmas?

No, I bloody love it. Christmas is my favourite time of year by miles. I get way to overly excited for it (as you may have already guessed) I think but oh well, Christmas makes me extremely happy!!

5) Do you still have advent calendars?

Yes, and I don't think I will stop having an advent calendar any time soon. Yum chocolates! Hehe.

Ok, so that was my first 5 Christmas related questions. I hoped you liked it and I will do 5 more on Monday.

Emily xx

Build up to Christmas

As you all may know. It's 21 days till Christmas!!!! Woop Woop! Yep, I am now counting down! I get way too over excited for Christmas for some reason. As you may find out throughout the countdown to Christmas. This is pretty much what I am going to talk about in this post, purely because honestly I didn't know what else to talk about.

Recently, I have been listening to lots of Christmas songs to get me in the festive, Christmas spirit. As you may know from one of my previous posts I have bought some Christmas decorations for my bedroom such as light up polar bears, fairy lights and a small Christmas tree. I am going to a really good, cheap shop called The Range to get 2 more small sets of Christmas fairy lights. It may sound like too much for some people but oh well, I love Christmas decorations, and for me you can never have enough of them. I'm sure some people get as excited as me but I know that some people just might not really care much about Christmas (which is a shame).

By the way, I would just like to say I am absolutely in love with the John Lewis Christmas advert with the bunny and the bear and all the other woodland animals etc. It is such an adorable advert and what makes it even better for me is that the soundtrack is one of my favorite song's at the moment, Lilly Allen's version of Somewhere only we know. I am in love with this song at the moment too. 

This was just really sharing what Christmas themed things I am loving at the moment and sharing my Christmas excitement too.

Sorry this was only a short one, and I apologize if my Christmas excitement annoys you but that is just who I am and I cannot contain my excitement.

Who else is excited for Christmas?

Emily xx

Flaws

Ok, the next big topic, flaws.

First things first.

What is a flaw?

A flaw is an imperfection or a weakness that is usually concealed by the individual. Flaws are things an individual doesn't like about themselves, the individual would usually try to cover up or do pretty much everything to improve this flaw or make it go away. Sometimes it can cause depression and flaws may also cause the person to hate themselves.

Remember everyone has flaws. Even if you see someone as flawless, there's nothing wrong with them and that there perfect, your wrong. Your not that person, you don't know, they may hate everything about themself. 

Examples of flaws and my flaws

There are many things that are seen as flaws, there are physical flaws and emotional flaws. For example, physical flaws are things such as pimples, body shape, body weight, face appearance etc. Emotional flaws are seen as things such as someone who is a naturally/extremely jealous, anxious, over reacting person or has anger issues. I have flaws too, I feel I have quite a few flaws but I will only share what I feel are my main flaws. My first is an emotional flaw... I am an extremely anxious person, I worry and panic over the smallest things sometimes. This is my main flaw because it causes me to have panic attacks which are scary and horrible things to have. My next main flaw is, well, I guess it can be both physical and emotional but I am also an incredibly shy person, I hate public speaking! I even try to avoid putting my hand up in class because I'm usually too shy. If I have talk to in front of the class or even a small group of people I will go bright red, one time I had to do a speech with my friend in front of the whole of the year and I broke out into a huge panic attack about a day before I had to do it. Luckily I pulled out of doing the speech before I embarrassed myself. That was only 2 of my flaws, I have more though.

However, I have learnt to try and ignore those flaws and appreciate what I have and like the way I look. On the other hand, I love some things about me too for example, I love my hair, it is a beautiful golden color and its nice and wavy which I like, I also like the shade of blue my eyes are. I decided to pick out the positives and the things I like about myself and I think you should do that too. Everyone has flaws, nobody's perfect but everyone has positives too. Just try and look for the positives about yourself and do not focus on your flaws, just the things you like. Unfortunately, some people may not like anything about themselves. Even though some people think that, there is always at least one thing that you will like about yourselves...you just have to find it.

I'm sorry it was quite short but I hope it was beneficial enough for you.

Emily xx

Christmas Bedroom Ideas

It's 23 days till Christmas. This means people start putting their decorations and trees up. Which is why I'm bringing 'Christmas Bedroom Ideas' to you. I hope this gives you some ideas on how to decorate your bedrooms for Christmas.

Fairy lights

Fairy lights are a must have Christmas decoration for your bedroom and there perfect for everywhere else in the house too. They are a cute, pretty and simple decoration that look gorgeous when on in the evening. They can come in quite a few colours, white, cream or blue are a classic popular choice usually, there are also multicoloured fairy lights available too. Fairy lights add a very pretty and festive look to bedroom. I have a few sets of fairy lights in my room. You could put them anywhere in your room.

A small tree

Adding a small tree to your festive bedroom look would be great. Add some baubles and fairy lights to make it even more christmassy and festive. This is the first year I have decorated my bedroom for Christmas but I am loving it and it has got me extremely even more excited for Christmas. I have placed my small tree in the centre of my window sill but if you have a small space on a desk, dressing table, chest of draws or anywhere else you can think of the tree will still look perfect.

Candles
Candles are great all year round but in the winter, I just feel like it's makes it feel nice and cosy. Scented candles are my favourite, there amazing, especially if they smell nice, and what better way to get into the Christmas spirit with a Christmassy scented candle. Candles are just a cosy little touch to your bedroom.

A festive duvet cover
For some people this may be a bit over board, or you might just don't like changing your duvet covers. But, a Christmassy patterned duvet cover may be nice. Honestly I haven't done this but it's a cute idea to feel all festive and add some more Christmas cheer to your bedroom.

I hope this gave you an inspiration on how to decorate your bedroom to get into the Christmas spirit. I hope this made you feel nice and festive now and ready for Christmas. Good luck on the decorating.
Emily xx